My heart is breaking. And I am sitting here, reminded of him. Of how I feel and how I am thinking of ending this. It's breaking my heart. I can not stop shedding tears of agony. It burns my face and leaves my eyes stinging. How do I know this is right?

I just, I just want that love. That love that lifts you beyond everything else. But, I want it to stay too. And that just is not happening. I'm cornered and I hate it. I want to be strong. To prove to myself that I am my own person. That I am confident and faithful. But I've also cried ten different times today. So what the fuck do I know.